you win some, you lose some

February 3, 2010 § 2 Comments

On Saturday I won a race. The first since 2005. It was my first race with my new team*. Though I came across the line by myself, I forgot to zip up my jersey until people started signaling me. My completely original victory salute appears to be me desperately struggling with my jersey zipper.


Saturday was also my Grandma’s birthday. She had been ill for a while, struggling with C.O.P.D. Starting last year, she was in and out of hospitals & convalescent homes, with very little time in the one place she wanted to be — her home. In order to keep breathing, she had to be hooked up to all sorts of machines and pumped with drugs. More than once she told me that she was miserable, but not yet ready to go.

On her birthday she decided that she was finally ready. She was showered with well-wishes and birthday greetings from her loved ones, she heard that I won my race, and she died at 11:00 that night. Sunday would have been her anniversary with my Grandpa, who died after celebrating their 50th year together. I like to imagine that he was waiting for her with dinner reservations and an armful of flowers. She loved flowers.

Yesterday was my birthday, the last of my twenties.

It’s been quite a week.


§ 2 Responses to you win some, you lose some

  • chatterbox says:

    Wow, Elis. So sorry to hear about your Grandma. But, how nice that she was able to prepare and go when ready. Loving grandmas are really hard to part with, though. On the other hand, I'm so happy to see you win in style and solo. What a great accomplishment for you and your team mates. Hoping your 29th (or is that 30th) year is the best ever.

  • Thanks, Sarah. She had a very good life and was deeply loved.

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