May 31, 2006 § Leave a comment
Not even close to clear. Something different, something a little beyond reach and not available in this second.
Sunlight, kisses, wind, sleep, whiskers, dreams, changing identities, being more.
Sometimes I wonder, too, about my motives. The need to do something noble (for them) is all well and good, but how much of that is me trying to comfort myself, make my own life something to admire & recognize? What part of my motivation is clear and what part is ulterior? And if the end result is adding a drop to the bucket does it matter?
On a lot of levels I think it does, ’cause if I’m not doing it for pure reasons I’m still not any better than the rest of ’em. And if my reasons were pure I wouldn’t be angsting over this…